#PMS

This is so true.

But it's not always PMS. Sometimes people can really set women off with pure bullshit attitude. Or men. But yeah women get branded for that just coz they get PMS. Well, if you're one of those guys, please don't read this any further.

I haven't blogged in 3 days because I have been so cranky and the PMS express is moving with full speed and does not wanna stop. 3 days ago Ryan was online and we were having a good chat when he abruptly disappeared (he always does). Later he texted me about how the internet connection stopped working and that he was sorry and that I might be thinking he does this more often than not but it was not in his hands because the internet connection stopped working. What-the-fuck-ever. I was initially okay but I did get pretty angry after I read his text. He practically started digging his own grave with that text coz I had not realized it until then. Anyway so I responded with "hmm". That is it. I did not know what else to say.

We did not talk for 2 days, he did not text/call and I have stopped initiating any of that with him anyway, and then I receive a text last night saying "how are you, no texts today?"... I did feel bad and I responded normally and it was all okay. He knows I am PMS-ing and he has always steered clear and left me alone the one time when I needed him the most. I am not a huge bitch. But yes I do get emotional and cry a lot and in 5 minutes or so I would be so happy that I would probably start talking to random people on the street. No kidding. But he never got that. Anyway, so he texts me today and I am all upset and he asks me if it is my time of the month and I am like yes, and that I am mad at him coz he has not called me in 2 days.

So he calls me up an hour ago. I was already having a pretty happy/funny conversation with Joe and I get the beep that Ryan is calling so I say goodbye to Joe and answer Ryan's call. He goes like "Oh, you're not all that sad, you say such things in your texts and look at you all chirpy". I start losing it right that very moment. And when I ask him about why he did not call me, he says he did not like that I sent him a text that said "hmm" 3 days ago. I was like wtf? What else am I supposed to send? Do I send "It's okay" when it is really not? So I start saying something and he starts ACCUSING me of how I always wanna complain about stuff and that he calls me only for a happy time and he cannot take this behavior, and then he hangs up saying that he will call me tomorrow when I am in a better mood.
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HUH? What the bloody fuck?

If you cannot be with me during my sad/bad/mad times, you sure as hell do not deserve to be with me during my happy times, mister! I doubt if you wanna be with me in my sad times. I doubt if you wanted to be with me at all, coz you're a jerk like that. So you better not call me tomorrow coz a monster awaits in the depths of my body. Just for you. With Love, (not)

Ugh!

I need chocolate. Right Now!

I am usually not this cranky, but yeah. I had to let it out..


Apfel